My World of Acting

Day 18: A problem that you've had

2011-09-03T01:12:00.000+01:00

I fluctuate in a lot of things.

My weight, my commitment to things at times etc

I think it's all due to lack of discipline really. I need serious discipline right about now
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Day 17 : Something that you're proud of

2011-09-03T01:10:00.000+01:00

I'm proud of who I am. Sometimes I look at myself and I look at others and wonder why I'm not like them. God made me for a purpose and I can say I'm fulfilling it day by day by his grace.

I'm proud of the love I have in my heart for people, I'm proud that I'm confident, I'm proud of being sweet, cute all that mushy stuff ( I used to dislike this because I felt it made me weak) I'm proud that I don't stay angry for too long and I'm proud that I can forgive easily ( I used to dislike this too)

I'm proud of me and I'm happy for the people in my life that have brought all these things that I'm proud of to my attention.

I'm proud that despite what happens in my life I have a Father that will always be there. *tear drop*

Mwah xx

P.S I know this was more than one thing lol!
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Day 16: Something you always think "What if..." about

2011-09-03T01:05:00.000+01:00

What if I'd have gotten a 1st class in my 1st degree where would I be.....

What if I had gone to a full time acting school and dedicated my whole life to acting....

What if I was slimmer ....

What if I was wealthier.....

What if I had never started blogging/tweeting etc...

What if ! What if! What if! Hmmmpphh!
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Day 15: Your Zodiac/horoscope and if you believe it describes your personality

2011-08-28T21:40:00.003+01:00

I don't believe in them but I'm apparently a Capricorn.
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Day 14: What you wore today

2011-08-28T21:40:00.002+01:00

A long Maxi dress from HnM. It looks like it's denim but it's not. I wore it with a tan belt and carried a small tan bag.

Sorry no picture :p
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Day 13: Your opinion about your body, and how comfortable you are with it

2011-08-28T21:40:00.001+01:00

I do love my body. I'm generally a shy person so one may tell in the way I dress at times. I don't like to attract too much attention but I do like to dress nicely.

I'd like to be much slimmer though, since I'm tall I think it would suit me better.

The one thing I think annoys me the most about my body is my hips because no matter how hard I try they just don't wanna shrink! Smh!
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Day 12 Five guys whom you find attractive

2011-08-28T21:40:00.000+01:00

In no particular order.

1. Taye Diggs
2. Tyreese
3. Lynxx
4.Morris Chestnut *faints*
5.Matt Damon ---> I think it's the way he acts!
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Day 11 : Your Family

2011-08-28T21:39:00.002+01:00

I have four siblings. One older brother, one younger sister and two younger brothers. I miss them like crazy! I miss my mum especially, my dad just left Nigeria and he'll be back in a week or two.

I didn't think I'd miss them like this, there are only a few things in this world that you can claim as 'yours' and one of them is your family.

I love them dearly :)

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Day 10 Put your music player on shuffle and write the 1st 10 songs that play

2011-08-28T21:39:00.001+01:00

1.Shawn Mcdonald - Wash me clean
2.Tal and Acacia - Clear View
3.Lights - River (Acoustic version)
4.Lights - Pretend
5.Smokie Norful - Somethin', Somethin'
6.Chris Tomlin - On Our Side
7.Michael Bolton - When A Man Loves A Woman
8.John Legend - No Other Love fea. Estelle
9.John Legend - Let's Get Lifted Again
10.Shawn Mcdonald - Yahweh
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Day 9: How important you think education is

2011-08-28T21:39:00.000+01:00

I know many people in life claim to have made it without a degree etc but despite this they were still educated. Education merely means to acquire knowledge and develop yourself intellectually. I believe education never stops, we should continue to acquire knowledge everyday. I know I still learn everyday and I'll try my best to educate my kids from as young as possible about many things in life.

Education takes you far in life, so yes I think it's very important.
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Day 8: What you ate today

2011-08-23T01:11:00.001+01:00

Nothing in the morning

Rice, plantain and roasted chicken for lunch.

Half a ball of semolina and vegetable for dinner.

I had a slice of cake too because it was someones birthday at work.

Terrible diet right? I miss the UK for this reason.

P.S I'm up to date now!
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Day 7: Five pet peeves

2011-08-23T01:08:00.001+01:00

1. White lies! Arghhhhh! E.g someone says "I'm outside your house", yet the person is 10 minutes away! Why tell such lies! I prefer the truth in all situations.

2. Bad drivers! *sigh* This gives me road rage. Thank God I've not started driving in Lagos.

3. Cutesy intentional misspellings: " lite" " kwik" " 'R " for are.

4.When I ask someone why they did something and they give you one long story and all I get is excuses! Save yourself and just apologise or do whatever you have to do.

5.Silence. Silence is not an answer. If you have an issue open your mouth and talk! This applies especially to friendships and relationships.

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Day 6: Your views on mainstream music.

2011-08-23T00:40:00.001+01:00

It is what it is. A lot of it tends to be trash, good beat with nonsense lyrics lol

I preferred music in the 90's.

Naija music makes me laugh. It really gets me in the mood to dance. I can't say I love it but it makes me bubbly.

P.S I know I'm behind, the weekend took over! Hehe sorry!
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Day 5- Things you want to say to an EX

2011-08-20T10:51:00.001+01:00

Urrrrm okay....

• No comment, I actually have a lot to say though.....but I'll zip it!
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Day 4- Bullet your whole day

2011-08-18T21:02:00.001+01:00

• I woke up at 4am as I was going to Ondo state.

• Left my house at 6am

• Got in a cab at 6:45am, I was waiting around for a friend as she had to give me a few things to take to Ondo.

• I got to Magodo gate at 7am where I was supposed to meet my aunt and another friend.

• Aunt arrives at 7:20am and tells me her driver can't take me to Ondo anymore so I'll have to charter a cab.

• At 8am my friend who was supposed to meet me in Ogba arrived and 15minutes later the friend escorting me to Ondo arrived.

• Driver took us to Ojota where we could charter a cab to Ondo.

• Half way through to Ondo I received a call that the document I was supposed to collect was not in Ondo so we had to turn around, I had to get out the cab and cross the express way! Ugh!

• Got back to Ojota and wondered around oguda GRA for a while lol.

• Sat in Chicken republic for about 3 hours chatting with my friend. Cool times lol

• Done a little shopping for toiletries

• Got a cab back to my house and errrr done a few things and now I'm here typing this!

My day was very stressful, my head is actually pounding as we talk but thank God for taking me out and bringing me in. The worst thing was I had to prance around in my NYSC uniform for the whole day! *smh*

Ohhhh wait! For those of you that were astonished that I don't have a book I love close your mouths lol! I like some books but I don't 'love' any particular one. I don't see the Bible as a book either :p
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Day 3 - A book you love

2011-08-17T00:24:00.001+01:00

(-_-) Sorry there is no book I love. I know this makes me sound so useless right now but oh well! Lol

I have a few books I like but not love!

Sorry! Short post! :p
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Day 2 - Something I feel strongly about

2011-08-16T14:37:00.000+01:00

Right now there are a few things I feel strongly about but the one I'll talk about is my career.

I don't have much to say on it really, I just want everything to fall into place. I pray for favour to get the necessary work experience needed and also finance for the exams I need to take.

Right now I'm working in a nice company for my NYSC and I hope to get retained *prays vigurously* . It's a multinational company and they offer a lot of training and provides exposure.

Thankful to God.

Day 2 completed! Yes baby! I'm on a roll hehehe!
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Day 1 : 5 ways to win my heart

2011-08-15T05:09:00.001+01:00

I assume we're referring to a man here.

This is in no particular order.

1. You have to be caring. I know it sounds cliche but it's the truth! I need a guy that would care,look after me and give me his undivided attention. Your actions and words will reveal if you're a caring person. Simple.

2. Love me passionately. Love has no bounds. If you love me passionately there's no way in this world that I wouldn't catch on. I love passionately, so I'd like the same in return.

3. Transparency. I love transparent people, it creates trust. I trust very few people. If I trust you and feel relaxed and comfortable with you then that's a good sign.

4. There are many males but few men. I need a man not a boy. Someone responsible, emotionally strong, physically strong, mature and the list goes on. I need a man not a boy that will break down over a little issue #totalturnoff

5. Making me smile. I love when a guy can make me smile! Always wants to see me laughing and happy. Very few people can get a genuine smile out of me.
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30 day challenge.

2011-08-15T04:43:00.001+01:00

So I've decided to take up this 30 day challenge and hopefully I complete it. :)

Thanks to the other bloggers who inspired me. Mainly Gee and Laurenta.

I must say the 30 day challenge asks a lot of personal Qs!
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NYSC Camp overall

2011-08-15T04:26:00.001+01:00

*proceeds to do walk of shame*

I'm so ashamed, yes very very ashamed. I know I promised to blog everyday in camp and after day 2 I failed! Once the lights were out at 10pm, my eyes shut and I was gone till around 4am! So guys I'm sorry! I'll try my best to quickly update you and give handy tips to those of you who may soon do NYSC.

First of all I'd like to say a big thank you to HappyBBB :) my boo I'll always love and appreciate you! She made my camp experience a whole lot of fun! As usual people complain constantly about camp but when I spoke to HappyBBB she broke it down and gave me the good and bad of camp! She advised me as to how I'd get myself through the 3 weeks and lo and behold here I am now *cats walk*

First few days of camp is all about registration! It's ugly and dead boring! Luckily for me being a foreign trained graduate I didn't have to join those hetic queues as my registration procedure was different and there were only around 10 foreign trained graduates. I didn't arrive on the 1st day but my advice to those that want to partake in the parade, be a platoon leader etc is get there on the 1st day. I actually wish I was my platoon leaders assistant or even the platoon leader itself! Hehehehe.

Okay I'm just gonna break everything down.

-Platoon-
You'll be given a platoon to join in which you will stick with for the next 3 weeks. I was in 3 Platoon and we won camp activities overall *sticks tongue out* Yes I'm always in the winning team baby!!! Hehe! You'll vote in a Platoon leader and assistant from among your platoon members. You'll also have a commander and a few other instructors assigned to you. These men will either hate you or love you and of course they chose to love me...I'm lovable :) My commander liked me just a little bit too much...
You'll also be assigned a Platoon officer, this will be one of the NYSC officers. Mine was a lady and she was just toooooo much! That lady has got it all! I actually need to call her and see how she's doing...!

-Hostel-
You'll be given a mattress during registration and a hostel. Now in each camp hostels vary. The ones in Ondo in my opinion were very decent. In each hostel there's around 30-60 girls. Luckily and I thank God I shared a room in the hostel with just 4 other ladies. I actually feel this is one of the reasons I was able to cope, I can't imagine sharing a hostel with 30+ females who were constantly just speaking in Igbo *rme*
Sadly, some people slept on the floor outside on their mattresses for the first few days.
You will meet very DIRTY people! Especially girls! Our hostel was named and shamed as the dirtiest female hostel in camp but we turned that around the upper week and won most cleanest hostel. We decided to pick 3 monitors from our hostel who will monitor the bathrooms and the toilets. I was one of the monitors. We padlocked the toilets and the bathrooms and people would only be able to use them by coming to us to drop their I.D cards, this way ensured that people cleaned up after themselves
Or they'd be reported. We also raised money amongst ourselves and paid some women to clean the toilets and baths twice a day. *deep sigh* prepare for the worse if you don't have cleaners.

-Friends-
If you're a recluse my advice to you is don't go to camp lol just stay @ home! I used to be a recluse myself.
It's very easy to make friends in camp. If you don't make friends during registration you'll always make friends from your platoon and also from your hostel. I made loads of friends, the majority being guys. Females were just not as welcoming, I kinda knew that would be the case anyway. The few females I did meet are awesome people! I even saw some yesterday :)

-Food-
Food is provided by NYSC, I ate from NYSC kitchen on 2 occasions, when my platoon cooked in the kitchen. Other times I ate in the mami market. My meals didn't move from rice or indomie! The worse things to eat if your tryna get a flat stomach! Don't get too comfortable eating because you don't wanna be in those toilets for more than 3mins max!

-Activities-
I'm a very competitive person so I tried to get involved with as much as possible. I joined the volleyball team and I was made captain, this is what I wanted the most. I got involved in many other activities.

-Allowance-
They give you N1000 in the first week and N1500 in the second. In the last week they give you your monthly allowance from NYSC which has increased from N9,800 to N19,800.

-Primary Place of Assignment-
You'll be assigned a place you'll have to work for the next year. If you're smart you'll try and get a request letter from a company you'd like to serve with (this is not easy) you could just take the risk and see where they post you. I'm very happy with where I'm serving :)

-State of deployment-
This is the most important thing. The state in which you are deployed to work in. If you can contact someone within NYSC to help make sure you're posted to the state of your preference then do so. I was posted to Ondo state and I had to redeploy to Lagos. Some people couldn't redeploy. I did expect that they would be considerate and focus on the fact that though I'm a Nigerian I am still more or less in a foreign land as I have never lived here before!!

-Community Development-
You'll have to join a CD group. You'll meet once in a week. I haven't done this yet so I don't know much about it.

I stayed the full 3 weeks. I had a medical note so I was allowed to leave at anytime but chose not to :) anyway good luck to the next batch! The worse thing about NYSC to me is all the forms you have to fill out and the amount of times you have to visit the Secretariat. It's stressful!!

Have a nice week!! xx

P.S please excuse all the grammatical errors etc it's 4am and I've not read over this. :p
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NYSC Day 2!! Stress!!

2011-07-07T00:40:00.000+01:00

Mehn right now I'm on my bed which is temporary as the girl who owns it is the directors daughter so she went to her mums house in camp to sleep! This is the so called vip spot with just 5other girls!

Nysc is very unorganised so be prepared if you want to come and serve! After registration all the stress reduces. Right now no foreign trained graduate in my camp will be registered till Friday, so that means no uniform, no meal tickets and no partaking in activities!!!

Camp is actually fun but the stress out weights the fun! Sorry but it's true. People are sleeping outside on the floor! Babies and mothers! In the rain!

*sigh* it took a lot of energy to write this ! I'll be up again in 3 hours :(

Good night guys xx
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NYSC Camp Day 1

2011-07-06T00:46:00.001+01:00

*covers face*

I didn't go guys!!!!!

There has been so much stress surrounding the fact that I've been posted to Ondo. I decided to delay the redeployment till I get to camp because all the running up and down to Abuja was becoming too much *sigh* my family have been shouting that I can't go! I've told them I'm going and if there's any trouble I'll come back...

I SHALL go to Ondo state camp tomorrow by Gods grace! So I'll let ya'll know what the 1st day is like :D

Thanks for the support guys! *hugs*

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NYSC Countdown and shock!

2011-07-03T08:47:00.000+01:00

So, NYSC camp is in 2days. As you can see from the picture I posted of my call up letter they sent me to Ondo not only for the 3weeks orientation but also for state of deployment. 30th June was the day I received my call up letter, I had so much confidence that they'd post me to Lagos I mean 1. I've never lived in Nigeria before so I guess I expected them to be considerate and post me not too far from home. 2. I know they post foreign trained graduates to Abuja or Lagos (By the way only married people get the option of choosing where they'd like to serve, yes rules have changed!!)

So the day I got my letter my eyes were filled with tears. I didn't cry but I felt the water fill my eyes! I had to suck it up because there was a big crowd of people outside the office. The thought of the stress of redeployment etc all just came to mind! Ughhhhhhh and I'm battling it now! So manyyyyyy people 'worked' it Lagos! Apparently 95,000 graduates are serving in this batch which is the most they've had in years! SMH! Can they even cater for that amount??!!

Hopefully, by Gods grace I get my camp changed to Lagos if not well oh well *shrug* I just can't do my 1year of service in Ondo! That's a definite no no!
So redeployment it is! I feel for my friend the most, she's more 'oyibo' than me and she's having a total break down that I'm not in Lagos camp with her :( we had planned to go to camp together etc lol I feel like a kid all over again.

I'll try make my next post on what you need to register for NYSC as a foreign graduate.

Lagos is so rainy!!!! Camp will be something!! Two days lefttttttt!! *gulp*

Have a blessed Sunday! Mwah xx
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Childhood memories

2011-06-27T03:50:00.001+01:00

Today I remembered some things from primary school. I giggled so much!!! I really did love my childhood, my parents gave us the best time as kids! I'll never forget the fact that every school summer holiday we would always go to Disney Land, Paris. After the 4th year it got boring lol but not for my younger siblings! Our holiday to America would have to be the best! Sigh! I love my childhood memories.

I grew up in the UK and the 1st primary school which I remember I went to was based in Lewisham, south east london. My school was filled with Jamaicans, Africans and also white people. The africans used to be called names like "ABC" which meant "African batty (bum) cleaner" and many other rude names hehehhe. Eventually most of the Africans in the school would lie that the were from Jamaica. Hahahaha the only person that couldn't get away with it was "Babatunde" that was clearly an African name!!! Oh he got the mick taken out of him big time!! Anyway, one the rhymes I remember from school is "Brown girl in the ring" I decided to google it and realised it was a Jamaican kids rhyme, we used to sing it and form a circle around the girl who would be skipping.

This is it :
"There's a brown girl in the ring cha la la la lah, There's a brown girl in the ring, cha la la la lah, She looks like a sugar in a plum --plum plum." The words in the song go on to encourage the child. "Show me your motion, cha la la la lah, show me your motion, cha la la lah, show me your motion, cha la la la lah, She looks like a sugar in a plum -- plum, plum!" When the song ends, the child in the middle chooses a friend to join her in the middle of the circle. The kids surround the two continue their song, now including the "partner" in the lyrics.

Hahahahahaha this was so much fun, I really wonder what my daughter will sing and skip too.hehehe nothing bizarre I hope.

Another one we used when we had to pick someone to do something was "Eeny, meeny, miny, moe"

It goes like this:

Eeny, meeny, miny, moe,
Catch the squirrel by the toe.
If it screams let him go,
Eeny, meeny, miny, moe, you are it!

LOL!!!!

Then there was so and so sitting in the tree, this was what we used to tease people that liked each other. For example "Liz and Seye sitting in the tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G , first comes love then comes marriage then comes a baby sitting in a carriage" hahahahahahaha!

I loved my childhood! No doubt about that! My dad treated me like I was the only thing in his life until my three younger siblings came along........Grrrr now he doesn't even know if I'm alive! Hmmmpphhh!!!

Have a nice week ahead xxx
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17 days left!!!!

2011-06-19T23:22:00.001+01:00

17 days left till camp!!!!! Whooooo!! I feel like a kid waiting to go on a school trip! hahahahahaha! Let's hope I'll be this excited when I get there! I plan to be faithful and stay the full 3weeks *sigh* if all Hell breaks loose I'll be on my way back to my house :)

I shall try and blog everyday if not I'll definitely be tweeting :) so keep me in your prayers ya'll :) hehe

For those that don't know I was supposed to start camp in March but fortunately I didn't. since then I've been offered 2 jobs. The 2nd assumed I has done my nysc, now I've corrected them they want me to serve with them.

Anyway, since I've moved to Lekki I put on a lil weight, I'm not sure if that's because I do next to nothing or because I don't sweat like mad as I would at my aunts, mind you that makes me shed a lot of pounds!! I'm far too comfy here, I actually feel very lazy, so I've started taking early morning jogs! Yay to me and I'll also ask my uncle if I can use the gym at his office or the club in Ikoyi . The gym prices here are so crazy!!!!!!!! I'll eventually sign up when I start getting my own income sorry my NYSC chicken change :) . I wish I was still a child at times :(

Have a lovely week ahead guys xx

I think I'm a detective........

2011-06-15T22:59:00.001+01:00

I'm serious....... -_-
Okay it all started when I finished my Law course, I started to analyse everything. I also watched a lot of thriller and horror movies which contains a lot of 'problem solving'. Now I watch too much 'Law & Order' , 'The Mentalist' , ' Fairly Legal' and many more...... Blame 'UniCh' on DsTv.
When I think about it, I think this is why I want to be a Management Consultant because the job requires you to do a lot of analysing, problem solving and coming up with solutions. I'd love to be Flyhigh007 , a Cia or a Homicide detective but all that is far too much for me Hahaha

I walked into my room today and realised that something was out of place. Was it the AC or is there a creepy crawly in my room :( so I decide to do an experiment......Lol I guess by now you think I'm crazy so I'll stop but it was the AC....I hope, I think! ugh! It was......

I'm a very supcious person and I read into a lot of things. If you ask me a random Q I won't let it fly by, the Q is not random because there's a reason behind everything. I hate leaving things unsolved, never attempt to tell me to 'forget about it'. It won't happen.

I tend to always be right and I normally always have evidenve to back me up. Hehehehehehehe

Well that's me. I'm not crazy, believe me :)

So random right? No!!!! nothing is random!!! Hahahahahaha. Okay

The End.

p.s This is characteristic is actually quite bad but it has its benefits!

Friends

2011-06-14T19:07:00.000+01:00

It's sad but the truth is I know a lot of people but have a few friends.

Some people have really hurt me but yet I tend to overlook what they've done and continue our friendship. This is not a good thing. This week I've decided I must stop. I need to stop!!!!!! It must stop!!!!

I had a sleepover this weekend and had my sweetheart buttercup over and another person. I adore that girl, she's a great friend :) One of my conversations with her made me realise that I can't be friends with everyone who 'I like' I know that sounds odd but that is it. There are some people I like that are absolutely no good for me and maybe vice versa who knows. Some people are just so negative and mean, maybe I'm too sensitive but I just can't take some peoples trash anymore and I have to face the fact that not everyone is my friend.

I trust too easily. It has to stop. It has stopped.

on a lighter note, I'm having a a lovely week and I am thankful to God for where I am going :)

A letter to you

2011-05-20T13:37:00.001+01:00

Hi...

I always feel like I'm writing a letter to a distant friend when I write posts, this hasn't always been the case.

So, how are you? I'm not too good. I struggle to sleep at night and my day is either very fast and busy or slow and boring.

I'm currently laying on my bed and I feel like I'm back in the UK because of my chilled environment but then I'm reminded that I'm not, by the fact that there's no light and I'm itching from mosquitoes bites *sigh*

Okay so I took a break from this post.

*2days later*

They just brought light and I'm so frustrated I just want to cry :( both the sockets in my room blew in the process, the light bulbs in the living room too and also one of the sockets for the AC in the living rooms. Why??????!!! Arghhhhhhh!!! Now I've got to tell my uncle and he'll have to spend money fixing it! I feel like a burden *sigh* This light issue has really annoyed me this evening, well morning since it's 2am.

Anyway, 2days ago I went to visit my friend in VGC (Victoria Gardens City) which is like 10minuts from me. The place is absolutely beautiful!!! The house was so lovely *sigh* it had a baby blue and light yellow theme, so so pretty! I wouldn't want to live there because it's so far but omo it's a lovely place so I guess I would.

I'm actually teary eyed now *sniff sniff*. I miss my siblings (no matter how much they annoy me) and the UK. There's nothing like your siblings doing silly things to cheer you up, that being said I wouldn't like to live in the same house as them LOL.

On a good note, I've made some good friends in the past few weeks and I'm very happy :D I hope to make more while I'm here :)

Ciao xx

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Where was I?

2011-05-06T03:39:00.001+01:00

So many things in my head that I want to put on paper but I'm totally lost for words. I ask God, why can't I write songs or poems? I mean I can hold a note (sing), so why can't I write songs? Why wasn't I in the queue when you were dishing out those gifts? *sigh*

Totally not fair!
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Hello??

2011-04-28T00:26:00.001+01:00

Hi people...

Long time...I know *covers face*
I honestly thought I'd blog more since I'm not as busy but something about Lagos totally drains me at times. I can't imagine what it will be like when and if I start working full time here.

Tomorrow I'll be moving to Lekki, God knows some part of me doesn't want to but I know I have to for some important reasons. I'm dreading the fact that I'll be far away from certain people, my boo most especially :( but I guess it's just the mainland bridge that separates us..at least I'm not 6hours over the ocean :)

I'm really really looking forward to camp because I know it's going to be a totally crazy experience! Experience that I can't buy . I know I'm going to rant and all on blogger and twitter but I'm still looking forward to it. I know I'll have difficulties with people because of the way I think but the way some people think baffle me....

An example : I've met quite a few females here who think it's okay to double date. No, they don't see it as cheating but as keeping your options open, the girl that said this was just 17. Also a lot of them cheat with married men with the intention of taking the man away from his family and starting their own. l know cheating happens everywhere . I believe the situations in Nigeria encourage the females to do this but it does not make it right. I had a lady ask me on more than one occasion "so you really wouldn't double date?" She asked me with the expression on her face "mumu, dey there". I told her no that I wouldn't want that to happen to me and also I wouldn't be able to handle it, so why should I do it? She even encouraged dating a married man as they have more to offer O_o to some this is normal....not to me! There's so much to learn here in Nigeria and one has to be careful with the kind of circle they "roll" with.

As of next week I hope to blog more since I'll be doing it from my laptop.

A big shout out to the friends that have encouraged me and stood beside me!!! I love you too much! *big soppy kisses*

Jaycee if you're reading this your lil sis misses you :D

Hope you all had a blessed Easter period :) I spent mine in Ibadan...maybe I'll do a post on the Zoo in UI (University of Ibadan)

xxxx
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E-key-tea

2011-03-31T21:20:00.000+01:00

So once again I plan for an impromptu journey, this time it was to Ekiti. When I told my parents they ranted on and on as to why I was not allowed to go. To top the matter, it's election period and so it's very dangerous now in Nigeria as people are commonly used for rituals (so I've heard). Eventually my friend called to speak to my dad and . She explained she works for the governor and her colleagues would be picking me up. My parents were more at ease since they were friends with the governor and the 1st lady, so I was sent to see them. I'm still have not, lol I really don't like things like that!!

By 10am I was ready and all excited, the governors PA was coming to pick me up in the official car so I was expecting a nice comfy journey. Ha! I waited for 3 hours and no show! Yes, trust me to start getting frustrated! I'm not used to this Lagos attitude of not taking time seriously, it really annoys me. Anyway, my friend later on called and said the car is being serviced and won't be ready so I'll have to take bus, my reply to her was "you must be smoking kerosene". I'm not pompous , a snob or spoilt but I am a bit paranoid about being among the public. I can be a recluse and so I like to be on my own most of the time or maybe just with a few people.

My uncle dropped me at Ojota where I met the PA and we entered a charted bus. The bus was comfy and had AC so I was okay. Lagos is so funny, a pastor came over and started praying for bus and declared " you will not be used for rituals in Jesus name" I shouted a resounding "Amen" hehehe! Oh, he later went around collecting money, for what you ask? Offering!!!!!!! But really? Offering???? O_o. *sigh*

The journey started at 3pm and we arrived in Ekiti by 7pm. Ekiti is peaceful, I love the weather here. I've currently been here for two days now. I'm so happy to be out of Lagos. Lagos is just too busy. I'm dreading coming back next week.

BRB..... xx
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Life

2011-03-30T01:05:00.000+01:00

Life you're very interesting. God help us all.
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My experience

2011-03-24T02:36:00.001Z

I honestly need a new blog to write down my experience here in Nigeria. I'm a lil tired now so I can't blog about the two things I wanted to talk about. I shall tomorrow.

The weather is getting really cool :)

Anyway I'll think about the new blog or I may just create a separate section on this current blog. Not sure :s

Be back tomorrow.. :)

P.S I'm feeling better now but demn.....some people just like to tread on my toes!!! *sigh*
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Tired..

2011-03-21T20:12:00.001Z

I'm tired of people taking advantage of my kindest. Absolutely fed up. I'm so angry right now, I'm trying so hard to wipe away the pain. *sigh*

Fed up. Absolutely fed up.
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For you... From me

2011-03-17T05:43:00.001Z

Dear Lover,

I love you more than you know and I really appreciate you too. You've been a great friend.
I feel you misunderstand me at times but hey it's allowed, I mean we have a life time to get to know each other, right?

Oh, I'm coming back to finish that film we started on Sunday.

You're my king and I'm you're Queen. I'm behind you all the way.

Like I said before I love you and you're a great friend.

Who cares what the world says! You're the best to me and more!

I know I'm like an open book at times and I wear my heart on my sleeve but oh well....you don't mind me being me, do you?

Yes I can be a drama queen....but you all still love me for it..I bring drama in a good way and it's because I love and care :p

See you soon dude :D

P.S don't stop being a 'helpless romantic'...I love the cards! Hehehe
Mwaaaah
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Life and some other things

2011-03-16T15:42:00.001Z

I don't know what to blog about these days :(

Anyway, I had a chat with a blogger today (hey hey! I know your reading :p) and he said 2 things had broken his heart.

1. That bloggers are shying away from blogging and moving to weak twitter. I agree with him twitter is weak. I will always prefer blogger over twitter, though twitter is more entertainment.

2. Every Tom, Dick and Harry blogs these days. Those with meaningful things to say and those without.

Oh well, that's life I guess.

Presently I'm in Nigeria! I'll try and update about my time here since I'll be here for a while unless I decide to run back :D

I first arrived in Lagos, then the next day went to Abuja. I was in Abuja for 2weeks. I prefer it to Lagos by FAR. It's peaceful, quiet and relaxing. Only problem is I only knew guys out there which is not a big problem but they were more like toasters.

#sidenote why can't toasters become friends? I have tried as much as possible to stay friends with some but they seem to always over step their boundaries and in some sense they try to bribe you. "I'll get you a job, stay in Abuja" I don't even doubt that they'll get me a job but they'd surely want something back in return....psssstt

Also I'd prefer to work in Lagos as the bigger firms are there and more opportunities.

One issue I had with Abuja was the water. I got a serious skin reaction which really annoyed me and made me run back to Lag. Lol I hate breaking out. My face means so much to me lol the years of acne have gone by...I rebuke it coming back lol! Once I got to Lagos I walked into the Chemist and bought some Panoxyl! That sorted me out! My face has cleared up now :D

So like I said I'm back in Lagos! It's like I'm living a nightmare. I cannot stand the way I sweat and how busy it is in Lagos. I also cannot stand living with my dad, he's always on my CASE!!!!!!!!! Then there's my aunt that appears like a head school teacher but she's nice and really trys to look after me.

I'll shall not be complaining anymore. I'll soon get a job and get on with life I guess. I really don't like asking people for things because it could be assumed I'm using them. I'll ask once then after that...........*zip it*

In June I'll be doing NYSC. I personally don't think I'll survive at camp for the full 3weeks. I really want to but I think I'll get some skin reaction as usual. My skin is too sensitive it's unbelievable. I think if I had schooled in Nigeria I'd be more able. Oh well.

I've only been here for about 3weeks now and I'm starting to feel lonely. Yeah, I know a few people here and there but it still doesn't feel right.

I came here to do four things and I hope they get done.

This post was just all over the place lol.

In all things give thanks. Thank you Lord for journey mercies and seeing me this far.

Enjoy your week.

Xx
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Let's talk about marriage

2011-02-07T14:54:00.002Z

*sigh*

Yes I am sighing! Marriage talk is getting absolutely boring now! Honestly, it is giving me a headache because I end up thinking about what mine will be like and clearly my time has not come so why am I bothering myself.

So this weekend was spent with the ladies. Saturday, my close friend organised a ladies night in, so we all chilled in her house till the early hours of Sunday. The main topic of discussion was MARRIAGE. I was enjoying the conversation at first but then it was getting a little boring. Why do ladies like to do that? sit and talk about men their whole night? To make matters worse that Sunday evening I had a bridesmaid meeting , in which we had to conclude on our dress design, shoes etc. To say this meeting was a nightmare is an understatement, I love weddings and all but too much talk about it and I get knocked out. I got a headache and the puff puff was like rock so that made it worse. If you know me well I love puff puff and I think this depressed me hehehehehe (-_-)

This post is random, obviously.

Yay! Exciting news!

2011-02-02T06:25:00.003Z

Hi bloggers! Take your time to read the info below. :D

The Mobile Market is an affordable retail solution to fashion needs. We have menswear and womenswear including shoes, handbags, jewellery, perfume, shirts, t shirts, ties, sunglasses, beauty essentials and a lot more.

Our aim is to provide affordable fashion for the Nigeria youth; whether made in nigeria or outside nigeria, designer or high street labels. We have periodic sales, we intend to move around cities, campuses and we are working on delivery and online orders.

Our next sale is a Valentine Sale.

Date is February 5th. Time is from 12 noon. Venue is The Pavilion, Lekki Phase 1.

The idea is to give people a chance to do their valentine shopping. Apart from the usual clothes, shoe, jewellery vendors, we will have cake vendors, florists, card and gift hamper vendors. There will be a mini fashion show and an auction, The Laji Dwayem Clothing Company Launch and Appearance by Blaise, performances by Beazy, Falz, EFA, Tola Smith and 'Laji D'wayem.

The Laji Dwayem Clothing Company offers what is increasingly becoming extinct in the Lagos clothing scene - Exclusivity. For a tidy sum, a few personality details are asked of you, and presto! Your T-shirt is ordered. Based on these questions, their design team develops a graphic based on one element, YOU.
A few days ago, they released their maiden design - A cocky bear that was inspired by Lagos based Publicist, Jibola Lawal's personality profile. The prototype, christened The J-Bear, became an instant hit as much for its utter cuteness as well as for its unashamed cockiness in it's caption "You want to hug me... you just don't know it yet."

Stall hire price is N15k; to hire a stall call 08132342373
To contact us in general: Send an email to themmarket@gmail.com, call us on 08132342373 and 08132887549, search "The Mobile Market" on facebook, follow us on twitter @TheMMarket and us on bb 257487cf

So guys if your in Lagos GO GO GO be there! Oh and get me something too :)
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Angry and Happy

2011-01-21T02:37:00.002Z

#Totallyrandom

Don't make decisions when your really angry.
Don't talk to much when your really angry.

Don't make decisions when your really happy.
Don't talk too much when your really happy.

I've realised at times when we are really angry or happy, we talk too much and make drastic decisions. I'm learning to zip it, relax and then act.

Make decisions when your sober!

Right? Yes? No?
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Enjoying the little things

2011-01-07T04:13:00.002Z

It's the little things that I enjoy.
It's the little things that make me smile.
It's the little things that I'm thanking God for.
I see the beauty in the little things for I know they are really the big things.
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The end

2010-12-31T01:27:00.001Z

So today's the last day of the year and I almost forgot. How is that possible? :|
When I'm in Lagos I feel like I'm in another world. I return to the UK today :'(
Thank God for everything.
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#2010memories

2010-12-30T00:13:00.000Z

#2010memories

Started well.

During the course of the year I thought I'd run mad but thanks to God I did not.

Ending/Ended Happy.

All glory to God for keeping me, my family, my friends and you. :)
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Live in the moment

2010-12-19T07:06:00.001Z

I'm the kind of person that lives like tomorrow is promised but I think it's time I changed that.

I've decided to start living in the moment. Living life like there's no tomorrow. I must begin to start recognising the beauty in each day/moment and activity.

It's hard living in the moment. So simple to say.
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The artist

2010-11-25T00:50:00.001Z

I knew this guy. He was a really nice guy. I said 'knew' because I don't think I 'know' him anymore. Anyway he always used to draw me beautiful pictures. They were indescribable, I may share some on this blog. Sometimes I wouldn't understand them but I always tried my best to decipher them and then later on he'd explain them.

One day the pictures stopped coming. I saw them no more. That broke my heart but I'd never question him as to why they stopped. I mean he stopped drawing them for a reason and I personally didn't want to know why because I guess it may lead to more pain.

One thing I dislike asking is questions. I guess I don't like feeling like a 'pain'.

He continued to draw pictures . I know he'll never stop, he's just to good of an artist to even think of doing that. I'd see some pictures at times and wonder if they were for me but I'd never ask. I mean if they were for me he would have sent them to me, right? Maybe I'm wrong. Nowadays when I see the pictures I try to ignore them. It brings back the memories of the personal ones I'd receive.

I think one day he'll have his own art gallery. He's that good.

These pictures were not painted with mere paint brushes but with something else.

Oh well. That's life.....right? but why can't I accept that?

I guess they are only pictures but like they say 'one mans trash is another mans riches'

Lost for words?

2010-11-25T00:47:00.000Z

So I tweeted 'I'm lost for words' and the response I got was 'Speak in tongues' . I cracked up but maybe that's what I need to.

It's been 1 month and I'm still lost for words.

I'm not lost for words. I think that statement is actually incorrect with regards to my feelings. As a matter of fact I think I have too much to say that I don't know where to begin. It's likely that I won't begin because I have gotten to that place where I don't talk any more. I just watch things either fall into place or fall apart before my eyes.

I also try not to talk because I feel it may make the 'inevitable' not come to pass. Yes, deception.

It's like the words were/are stuck in my throat and I am choking on them. Thank God I don't choke on them. If I can't share these words with anyone there is a place were I go to drop my notes and that is 'Throne of Grace'

He's the only person that can understand this picture that my words paint. God.

It's been too long

2010-11-18T11:10:00.001Z

It's been a while :( I'll be back soon hopefully.....
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Blog closed.

2010-10-30T15:58:00.001+01:00

I'll be back hopefully in 3 months or before. xx

Vanity Vanity Vanity

2010-10-18T07:38:00.000+01:00

The big cars, the LV bags, the big houses we could list them all. It's all vanity. There's nothing wrong with them, I mean I wouldn't mind a new car and a new designer bag right now but we need to remind ourselves that these things don't define us. The rich and the poor will both die at the end of the day and take nothing to the grave.

I was thinking about my trip to Nigeria and I remember a hair stylists telling me how much the rich look down on him. He swore he would never marry a rich girl. Sad. I've witnessed how rich women speak to their house girls or drivers as if to say they are animals. Even my uncle likes to bully people because they can't reply. Smh

P.S I'm feeling better. It's just a phase. I'll be okay. :) and chacha sorry I don't always reply comments I get them to my phone n forget to reply them when I get on my laptop. I'll try to from now on.
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2010-10-17T02:57:00.000+01:00

I hit the play button and the tears ran down my face. Why me?

New album : Audrey Assad
Great songs.
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Tal & Acacia

2010-10-15T23:35:00.005+01:00

Yay. My new found loves! Yes, I love them! I love their song 'Clear view'. Enjoy!

Isaiah 40:31

But those who hope in the Lord

will renew their strength

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary

they will walk and not faint.

Every time I try to see your face, no no

Clouds get in the way

Life is gray when I'm out away, no no

I want more than this

All I want, truly all I got is waiting

Is already here

All I want, truly all I got keeps me hoping, praying for you to appear

Take me on your wings now forever

I love when we fly

Take me to a place that we never ever been doing alright

Oh the valley's looking small when I'm with you, whoah

Don't land us 'til I see a clear view

Every day could look just the same, no no

I want to see more

Blue skies here it's all so clear, no no

The wonder of you

All I want, truly all I got is waiting

Is already here

All I want, truly all I got keeps me hoping, praying for you to appear

Take me on your wings now forever

I love when we fly

Take me to a place that we never ever been doing alright

Oh the valley's looking small when I'm with you, whoah

Don't land us 'til I see a clear view

Take me on your wings now forever

I love when we fly

Take me to a place that we never ever been doing alright

Oh the valley's looking small when I'm with you, whoah

Don't land us 'til I see a clear view

Like a child I like to fly

Closer to the sun

When I fly with daddy high I've only just begun

Whoah

Like a child I like to fly

Closer to the sun

When I fly with my daddy high I've only just begun

To fly!

Take me on your wings now forever

I love when we fly

Take me to a place that we never ever been doing alright

Oh the valley's looking small when I'm with you, whoah

Don't land us 'til I see a clear view

Take me on your wings now forever

I love when we fly

Take me to a place that we never ever been doing alright

Oh the valley's looking small when I'm with you

Don't land us 'til I see a clear view

This was a cover by China Girls I loved it :) I call them Ching & Chang hehehe

Friday

2010-10-15T16:12:00.000+01:00

I can't believe it's Friday already! I'm in shock! Time is going to quick. It's scary.

Have a lovely weekend.

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Newness

2010-10-15T15:47:00.000+01:00

I need a change of environment. I need something new, not just for 3weeks. I need thoughts to be erased, I need my mind to re-focus.

I feel so vulnerable putting stuff on this blog. As I write this blog it is private and not open to the public.

Currently in my friends bed hehehe. *sigh* happy I left home.

I can't believe it's Friday already. No, I'm not excited. *shrug* oh well.

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My escape

2010-10-15T01:28:00.000+01:00

I was looking so forward to being back in my cocoon. Now I just want to run away. How do I explain these never ending tears to my family? I can't stay here tonight. So off I go.

I really don't deserve this. Lord you know I don't , so why is this happening to me?

*sigh*
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2010-10-14T12:34:00.000+01:00

And sometimes you hurt yourself just so you can make others happy. That's a wrap. Lean on me when your not strong but please don't break my shoulder and then walk away.

*tear drop*

Good Night
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Questions and answers

2010-10-13T08:58:00.000+01:00

Life is funny. Sometimes we don't ask Qs because we're scared of the answers we'll get. In such situations what should one do? :/ obviously ask? Right?!

Btw any questions ya'll want to ask me? Hehehe
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sigh

2010-10-11T16:10:00.000+01:00

:( time is up. The adventures of Miss Flyhigh in Nigeria ends today. *wails* it has been a wonderful experience. It may continue, it may not.

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Home sick

2010-10-08T05:13:00.000+01:00

The title says it all. I think my time here has come to an end. Thank you Lagos for treating me well. I'm hoping the next few days fly by quickly. Today was so hot. Never felt so hot before. My dress ripped on top though it was not so bad. *sigh*

Anyway Good Night.
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VCR's

2010-10-07T07:00:00.000+01:00

I remember the good old days of VCRs. Me and my bro would record all our favourite films and shows and watch them over and over again. One film we watched over and over was 'Coming to America'. If the films/shows stopped making us laugh etc we'd just erase it or record over it! Simple! SOMETIMES I wish we could do that with our memory. Either erase it or just record over it. I REALLY wish. I do. Oh well.

I just thought about this while trying to send the other post! MTN your annoying me!
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No title

2010-10-07T06:47:00.000+01:00

It's funny the power a few words hold and how it can totally change your day but then again I guess we also have the power to not allow it to affect us. I guess I failed. This wasn't the post I intended on posting but I've lost the zeal now maybe tomorrow I'll post it. I hope. Thanks for all the mails n DMs. I really appreciate it :) REALLY I do.

Have a lovely week. xx
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I miss it

2010-10-02T03:59:00.000+01:00

I just wanna be in my cocoon. Where I'm away from the world and the noise. Where I can shed tears no one but him can see. I just wanna be in my cocoon, where I'm alone. I wish I was heading there right now :(

I think at times I can be a recluse. It's bad, I'm trying to breakout of it.

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Fade away.

2010-10-01T06:55:00.000+01:00

Fade away. That is all. Just fade.
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Here's the link

2010-09-30T19:30:00.000+01:00

Lol okay I found the link for her post , I was being a lil lazy. Hehe

I rectified it jhazmyn :D

http://www.bellanaija.com/2010/09/29/the-adventures-of-miss-biosu-welcome-to-lagos/
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The rain

2010-09-30T18:42:00.000+01:00

When it rains in Lagos why does it seem like we need to build Noahs ark all over again? Seriously, it rains like it's the end of the world.

I'm sitting in my aunts house waiting to go back to my friends place. I've been sitting here for over 2hours. I just wanna go home n sleep!

I did my hair today and I so don't like it. Hmmm the hairdresser messed up big time. Not happy :( :(

I've just noticed a bite on my arm *sigh* sorry 3. Gosh! I just napped off and the mosquitoes or wotever just had some fun! Ugh

Anyway Liz has a new post on BN here it is ...sorry I couldn't get the link lol but I'm sure you'll find it there.

I finally got home! Phew!

I'm posting this late...

Yay Nigeria is turning 50 and no one should say there is nothing to celebrate

Have a nice weekend
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Out out out!

2010-09-29T08:20:00.000+01:00

Yesterday I went out myself lol! Big accomplishment! Yes I'm adapting on my own and I'm proud! I went to the Island then a few stops at the mainland. I took the BRT. It's quite nice, AC etc. Hmmmm problem is the people who you sit next to Lol! Some people have strong body odour! Chei! Heehe anyway the BRT ride was nice n peaceful. I had my music on me. I really need and iPod *sigh* using my mobile does not help my battery. I'd enjoy that ride everyday. It allows me to sit and reflect peacefully.

God is great....leaving here is gonna make me teary eyed! I love big Liz... :=] she's awesome, staying with her is much fun. Too much fun and jokes. Her post on bella naija is here http://bit.ly/aiUqo7

Anyways today (since it's past midnight) will be a long day! So let me sleep.

Good night ...

P.S OS I miss you bro :=]
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Weekend ....

2010-09-28T07:53:00.000+01:00

I find this picture so cute! Don't you?

My last post was like a week late! I didn't know how to conclude it! Heehee!

Anyway I had a lovely weekend! Saturday I went to Terrakulture for a book reading event. It was really nice. Sistasoul performed and she was awesome! Gosh, I want to play like her! Also two guys performed a song, they were great!

I met Denrele and he turned out to be a really cool guy! He was very cool not as crazy as his dress sense! Watch out for his interview on Bella Naija by Big Liz lol..my big sis..heehee! Met Yemisi davis too. I think that's her name. She was just crazy...lol

Sunday I attended Le Petit Marche. It was lovely, loads of great stuff. I'll upload some pictures and videos when I'm back in the UK.

*sigh* Sunday was a nice day :=] though it ended kinda funny...sometimes I wish I could re-arrange things. :(

Off to do my hair tomorrow! :D

Have a lovely week xx

P.S thanks for all the comments. Sorry I can't reply. Your all making me smile :)

Song suggestion : Tal & Acacia - clear view. I looveeeee this song! Their voices! Hehehe!

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Giving it unconditional

2010-09-27T08:34:00.001+01:00

The feeling you get from loving someone is amazing. From mother, to brother to your partner to friends etc. Giving unconditionally sometimes feels stupid. You feel like the jowka but why put the walls up? Take down the guards. It's worth the risk. The love of God is safe.

You know. One thing God has commanded us to do is show love to all. To everyone. Those who have hurt us, betrayed us , lied to us and of course to those who've shown love to us.

One thing with me is that I feel I forgive to quickly but aint that good? But the feeling is silly. Showing love when the 'normal' human would hate. I have been trying to hold back of late but I know that's not me and looking back I feel silly. It brings tears. The truth is when you choose not to love but hate and be bitter your hurting yourself in the process. Some time this week a friend was telling me how much he hates a particular lady. I was in so much awe as to how someone could hate so much. I saw the pain in his eyes. I felt for him so much but what he doesn't know is that he is hurting himself. :(

Showing love at all times is HARD. I do feel stupid at times but you know what? I feel fulfilled at the end. Knowing that though I feel stupid I know it's right and it's what I was created to do. I hope you all understand. Heeheehee!

The thing that encourages me the most is that I've messed up big time but God still loves me.

This post is so random, I know. I just woke up thinking about all the people I've met and interacted with. The good and the bad and how I've tried to treat them all the same regardless.

"Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins." 1 Peter 4:8

"This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you"

Britt Nicole 'Safe' - talks about love being safe.

Deas Vail - Cages. I love this song.

Skillet- rebirthing. Awesome lyrics.
Have a blessed week. xxx
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Saturday 25th September 2010

2010-09-25T20:20:00.000+01:00

Today was a different day. New location. New people. I'm trying my best to adapt.

It hurts when someone says I'm spoilt. Well excuse me I've lived a different life for 23years do you expect me to just drop it and adapt after a week? Even the expatriates that have been here for 6months have not adapted and they have most things on a silver platter.

I'm so annoyed. Mostly hurt that people don't try to understand. I am who I am. Whether you like it or not. I try my best. I've don't some things that some Lagosians would dare not doing. I've tried.

I'm I supposed to be used to danfo? BRT? Etc ! For crying out loud I just don't get some people!
You have to understand everyone is different and we all had a different up bringing whether we lived in the same country or not.

I'll let you know how my weekend goes.

have a nice weekend. xx
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My so called 'worst day' in Nigeria.

2010-09-24T19:16:00.000+01:00

So yesterday I interviewed 2 South African expatriates in an IT firm in VI. I loved it so much. It was such joy meeting them :) anyway the killer was the journey back!

Hmmmmmmmm!! Where do I begin o! At first I was gonna take the okada then switch to a taxi but my beloved friend warned me not to so I decided to wait for the taxi as he suggested. I waited and priced from 3,500 k to 2,200 but end up giving him 2,500 because I felt sorry for him. This journey to the mainland took 5 hours! My flight from the UK to Nigeria is 6hours! Gosh! My face was getting irritated and all sorts. Thank God for face wipes. Plus my cousin was with me so I felt a bit okay. To top it my battery was low and it was raining! So no BBMing or tweeting!

Anyway we got home finally! You would think all was well at this point but NOOOO the gate was locked! Network was down and so as a result my aunts line was not accepting calls! We stood in the rain for about 30mins! I was so upset!! Chei, I could've cried! I'm not gangster at all, I'm just a homely girl that likes to have a few adventures every now and again! We called my uncle and he called around and finally the gate was open.

For the first time since I've arrived I slept like a baby :)

It wasn't that bad now that I look back at it! Hehehehe

In all seriousness though what do you do in time of an emergency? You can't call the police because there is no emergency number and also network is crazy! The expats said their biggest fear was if they had an emergency they wouldn't know what to do.

God help Nigeria.
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Random post

2010-09-21T19:18:00.000+01:00

Writing things out really helps.

I love creative people there is never a dull moment with them.

Why do we have to 'try to be ourselves?' Why can't we just be who we are?

Being normal is boring and to be honest it's the easiest option but then again what is 'normal'?

I like adventure. I like taking risks. I like the unusual. I like Nigeria hehehe!

I used to be scared of 'me'.

I cry a lot. It doesn't mean I get upset a lot. I cry when I'm happy too. I drink a lot of water I guess heehee

I like the 'imperfect' because watching them become 'perfect' (or better) over time is a beautiful sight. Like watching a child grow or a flower blossom.

I don't mind waiting. As long as I know I'm not waiting in vain I'll patiently wait.

I don't mind waiting on the Lord because I know he's coming back. Sometimes onlookers will mock but oh well.

God is too nice. LOL! Really he is. Bless him.

Some decisions we make may seem stupid to people but it doesn't mean they are stupid.

Sometimes I feel like my life is a show and once the audiences boo's me I take it to heart and start acting out of character. My old teacher told me you always stay playing your 'character' regardless of how the audience act.

Yes random thoughts. I just added one person to my list of people I really appreciate it. She accepts me as I am. I'm such a teary eyed person smh.

Have a nice day xx
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Excited

2010-09-21T01:47:00.002+01:00

Written on 20/09/10

Hey guys,

I can't sleep! :(

Yesterday was nice and relaxing. I must say I really appreciate my family in Nigeria. They try their best to make me comfortable etc. Ummm I do feel a little bit caged up at times, a little pampered and I think I just need some freedom to experience this 'tough' life.

Anyway I got through to my 'big sis' Liz. She's also in Lagos. I'll be going to stay with her since she's home alone. I'm excited hehehe!

Today I'll be finally unlocking my phone and umm meeting up with some people.

I really appreciate some tweeps. Esp those for helping out with my research.

Anyway I'll update in the evening.
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My Love

2010-09-21T01:47:00.000+01:00

This was wrote on 18/09/10

Hey people,

I'm in Nigeria at the moment. I arrived yesterday. I'll be here for just under a month. I came to do some work and then I'll be gone again :(

My journey was quite smooth. I got to the airport and got my luggage under 10 minutes. I was shocked o! But then again we did arrive an hour late! I've gotten use to the whole 6hour journey now! Oh the lady at the airport who had to check my luggage stole my pack of gum! They have a way of trying to intimidate people sha! I
Just told her to keep it! Smh!

Anyway, my friend came to see me when I got home. It was a lil awkward for me. I don't know why, actually I do! I appreciate him coming :)

I really wish I had my own driver. Very annoying. I may just have to use my uncles or aunts or depend on people to come and pick me up.

Oh my plans of going to Port Harcourt have been killed. I've been told it's far too dangerous. To be honest no matter how bad a place is I do honestly think one can cope. I mean they can't kidnap every foreigner they come across. Plus, who am I? :|

With regards to my last post, I recently found out something that literally ate my heart and I'm confused as to what I should do. I can't even cry. I'm just numb. I honestly see myself becoming cold soon but then I know that's not me *sigh* but I know this will have an affect on me. Whether good or bad I'm yet to know.

I have an issue with sleeping oh.
Geez I just can't sleep! I slept at 10pm and woke up at midnight thinking it was 7am. Chei I was so annoyed! I forced myself back to sleep and woke up again at 3am. Forced myself again and got back up at 5am. *sigh*

I'm happy I have my music, my  and most importantly God with me here. :)

Ciao xx

P.S I love this song by Deas Vail 'Excuses' have a listen if you can. Oh, and also 'Saviour' by Lights. The lyrics of songs are so important to me, I love these ones. #Okbye :D
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Update on my love

2010-09-21T01:46:00.001+01:00

This was wrote on the 19/09/10

Hey guys,

I'm up early again! It's 6:15 and I've been up since umm 5am I guess. The AC is too strong, I feel like I'm back in London. I usually just turn it off and use the fan.

Yesterday I met up with Ese Peters. He's a real sweetheart, he's like a brother. Great music & a great guy! Then my cousin who just moved to Lagos came over too. Her American accent has me rolling on the floor in laughter. I really don't know why. Americans are loud and confident. I like it.We had the typical ladies night in...lay all your issues on the table n discuss! Hehehe it was fun, it reminded of the sleepovers we used to have when we were younger. They were crazy.

Other than that yesterday was umm okay I guess. I really couldn't stay at home even though there was light etc . I just felt the need to get out. I like to be busy.

Anyway, I'm off to church soon. I hope I like it. :|

Have a blessed Sunday.

Mwah
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2010-09-17T01:00:00.001+01:00

Regret Today
By Catherine Pulsifer, © 2007

How many times do we say something that we immediately realized was not the right thing to say?
How many times do we look back on an event and think, if only I had....
How many times do we do something that we wish hadn't done?

You can't change what has been said.
You can't change a past event.
You can't change what has been done.

Do you call it regret, sorrow, repentance?
Do you think about what might have been?
Do you relive an event the way it should have been?

Forget about regret, and focus.
Focus on today, not on the past.
Focus on what you can do, not what you didn't do.

The only thing to regret is living in the past
The only thing to feel sorrow for is not living each day to the fullest.
The only thing to do to repent is to sincerely say, I'm sorry. Don't live your life regretting yesterday.
Live your life so tomorrow you won't regret today.

P.S I was going to come here writing about my regret on a certain topic but I read this and I refuse too. To say I'm in pain is an understatement. God sees my heart and will heal it in due time. Right now I just think I need to shut everything and everyone out because the more I let people in the more I seem to get hurt.

Shyness

2010-09-16T02:32:00.003+01:00

Why shyness is a gift

Nobody knows me, they think they do;
They say:
Shy one, wallflower, what's the matter with you?
Overcome your shyness, look me in the eye,
Be a real person, a social butterfly.

I say:
You don't know me, the passion I contain,
This gentle, quiet heart that is my domain:
Depth, reflection, kindness of mind,
These are my qualities, the way I shine.

My shyness is a part of me, a quality;
A substance of softness, an energy.
Caring too much, perhaps,
Pleasing too much, perhaps.

But what a wonderful package shy is:
To speak with feathers, to listen forever;
To care so deeply, to think so clever;
To be so stable, to leave you: Never!

Now what you don't see is what you don't get;
You can't win the prize, if you don't place your bet.
One day you'll see who I really am

Hopefully it won't be too late.

Anonymous

Your gift

The plane has landed, I'm ready to fly;

My loyal pilots ready: Introvert and Shy.

My airline attendants: Sensitivity and Compassion,

Serving my lover in the grandest fashion.

My tickets ready, always been;

All I needed was a Yes, you can come in.

It's true I belong in this plane of love;

My baggage really wasn't, twas my treasure trove.

How simple its revealed when the flight is planned;

Love was always my traveling companion, deep inside I AM.

Anonymous

Introducing my big sis ...

2010-09-13T12:42:00.006+01:00

Hey people,

I hope your all well. This morning one of my long lost 'Big sisters' called me today. It was so exciting to hear her voice after so many years! I can't wait to spend time with her in the next few weeks! I'm excited. Well I just realised she has a blog ... http://missbiosu.blogspot.com/ I love it. It brought back memories of why I have always wanted to move to Nigeria. Finally, another 'Londoner' who sees what I see!

If you read her first post, it totally explains how I felt towards Nigeria in the beginning. I came to Nigeria in 2008 just by chance. Like Miss B my name sake , I was blessed with a ticket. A family friend said he would buy me a ticket to come and visit. *wink wink* Family friend ko (Don't worry I'm not interested!) . Plus my friend was going for her grandmas birthday and wanted to me to assist her. My friend later cancelled so I was off to Nigeria on my own but I didn't mind because I hadn't been in 10 years and wanted to see my 'family'.

My experience in 2008 was amazing. I went in September and came back in October. When I came back I looked at life differently. I went on the Internet researching about moving back to Nigeria etc which is how I came across Nigerian blogs. The first blog I found was about the Yankee girl who moved back to Nigeria, click here for her blog. I would email her and ask loads and loads of Qs. She was very helpful. The next blog I saw which connected me to all the Nigerian blogs was GoodNaijaGirl's blog. She is actually most loveliest person you could come across! From there I started blogging and saw links to many other blogs.

For the faithful followers of my blog, I'm sure you won't forget 'boo' aka 'Mr A'. He showed me around Nigeria and gave me a good/bad experience. I really don't regret meeting him. We may not be together today but he showed me a lot about Nigeria. I loved him and cared about him very much. Till this day he sends me texts to say he will never forget the impact I had on his life and the love I showed him. *blush*

So I've been to Nigeria three times in the space of one year. Lol my mum and dad ask me 'what are you looking for?' Nigeria is not perfect, I know. Either way I still love it. Just like he is not perfect but I still love him. He? who is he? Lol ..mind your business :D

So after reading my sisters blog and talking to a few people the passion has come back. Me and my cousin have so many plans and I pray God directs us oh.

I've really learnt a lot about Nigeria and I'm proud of myself too. I've learnt so much about moving back etc . I think I could write a mini guide on moving back. :D Also, thanks to my big headed friend teaching me, my pidgin is quite good too :D u go fear pidgin talk na hahaha! Oya laugh ! You would never catch me speaking pidgin audibly though ..!

So, 'How do you want to impact Nigeria?' That Q is not talking about going back and making money for yourself but how do you want to impact it for the bettering of people? the society? etc

Have a nice week. I'll be back xx

P.S another site to look at :

http://www.back2naija.com/

:(

2010-09-02T22:50:00.004+01:00

I hate this feeling, I'm so not a happy bunny at all but I won't allow this to effect me.

I do feel like I'm killing myself softly, I ought to just help myself out but it's hard I guess.

I need a shoulder :(

*sigh*

Totally Random ...

2010-09-01T13:35:00.008+01:00

This is totally random

Ummmm I can't believe we're in September, someone call me and say it's not true. This time last year I was just getting back from Nigeria and oh it was an experience. It's so scary how time is flying by so quick? seriously, don't you think?

The End is near .... I think ...anyway

Well I gladly look back to September 2009 and I can say I don't regret anything apart from I wish I could have worked harder. Yep, I wish I had worked harder. I wouldn't have achieved more but what I have achieved would have been of better quality. I don't know if that makes any sense to you. hehehe

Ha! I remember when I was 21 I had this big dream of getting married at 23 ! buahahahahahaha! It's like the last thing on my list I guess. (Don't tell my parents ) There is so much one can achieve in this life time and I really think marriage can hold you back BUT for SOME marriage is the stepping stone to them going further in life, so I guess it is not an obstacle for ALL. Don't get me wrong, I'm a family girl and I do want to get married and have kids and all that bla bla bla but I just think us ladies put it number 1 on the list. WHY????????!!!!!! We have this dream of having the big successful husband who we can boast about, hello? ladies you can be a success too!!

Gosh! I'm tired of hearing 'Oh, you need a man who can look after you' . I'd want a man who will cherish, love and care about me and surprise me every now and again and I'd like to be able to return the favour too with my own money.

I'm happy to know people like Funms she is a hard working lady and having 'lil' 5 min talks with her makes me sit up right. The same with Temite as crazy as she appears on twitter, she's a bright intelligent girl. Then there's people like Lighteherlamp , who just by her mere words encourage me to get closer to God.

Anyway, subject change. A life with no meaning is like a day with no light (words for Barlowgirls) Success to me equals knowing your calling in life and walking in it. It's all good and dandy to have a good paying job and be married but what is your purpose and are you walking in it?

I've been thinking about my purpose for the last couple of days, I've been thinking along the lines of the post that Funms wrote 'parallel parking' . I don't want to be a carbon copy of anyone and sometimes you slowly see yourself becoming someone else. I'm breaking out slowly by slowly being the me that God has created me to be. I am scared, I know I am. Fear is a big obstacle I tell you but I shall overcome.

It seems like peoples main drive these days is money. I'm not saying we don't need money o!

So Q, do you feel like your fulfilling your purpose ? It's a frightening thought at times I think.

Enjoy your week and this song. I love it.

P.S my reasons for wanting to be anonymous in the words of Bob-ij 'The safety and security of expressing yourself without restrictions to being labeled.'

Infinity Love

2010-08-28T02:38:00.007+01:00

I seek for an infinity love that will never expire,

An infinity love that loves today and tomorrow,

A love so certain I'll never have to enquire.

I seek for an infinity love that is ever inspired,

An infinity love that between

Two hearts that have no beginning or end continuously flows,

Love as a seed that creates gardens that never cease to grow.

I seek for an infinity love that doesn't budge or bend,

And infinity love that figuratively has no end.

A love as certain as my blood type, and as rare as my finger print, undoubtedly love without a shadow or tint.

I seek an infinity love a permanent print....

An infinity love that will never expire, a love so certain that my heart will never have cause to question or enquire...

An infinity love which can only be acquired when as the finest gold we have been in and come victoriously out of the fire.

Elizabeth A & Elizabeth A

Barlowgirl

2010-08-27T08:58:00.002+01:00

I've become a mega fan well not fan but lover of Barlowgirl's music. Their hit record 'Beautiful Ending' was a lovely song.

I'm the type of person that when I hear a song, I want to know the meaning behind it. So I sat down and researched the internet and this is what popped up :

"The album’s lead single, “Beautiful Ending,” is a shimmering ballad that perfectly showcases the sisters’ gorgeous vocal blend as well as their emotionally weighty word play. “You see great people in history that have followed God passionately and have dedicated their entire life to Him. When you get to the end of their lives and you see the end of their story and somehow it’s like they lost their first love,” says Lauren. “They lost the passion with God and it was so sad to see that they just fall away from loving Him. We said ‘God, we never want to lose you. We never want to lose our first love. We would rather not have this ministry. Could we lose seeing you in the midst of serving you all the time?’ We never want that to happen. That’s what that song came out of.”

After reading this, I sat up straight. Who doesn't want a beautiful ending?

These sisters inspire me :)

Have a lovely weekend. xxx

Afraid

2010-08-26T22:39:00.007+01:00

Afraid to love because I'm afraid of being blind.

Afraid to open my heart cus I'm certain I'll loose my mind

Afraid to take his hand because I'm scared he'll let it go

Afraid to plant a seed because I'm terrified that it won't grow.

Afraid to walk into the unknown because of the things past experiences have exposed

Afraid to allow love to penetrate because I fear the policies love impose.

Afraid to believe his truth because I'm scared it could all be a lie

Afraid that love will be a figment of my imagination, that I will realise I was daydreaming all the while.

Afraid to allow his love to pump through my veins because I'm afraid it will be the poison obstructing my blood flow , Afraid to open up because I fear he'll leave as all my hidden scars show.

Afraid to gaze into his eyes because the last time I did my heart froze

Afraid to love because I'm terrified I will be the fool to believe I am the one his heart chose.

Afraid of the possibility that one day these fears will be past tense, and the same love that died will also be the same love that mightily rose

Elizabeth Ayoola

Indescribable Pain

2010-08-25T22:52:00.007+01:00

The night is so dark and the pain so great.

All I can do is watch rivers flow from my eyes as I wait.

Wait for the pain to subside and wait for the tears to evaporate. . .

As I wait for the weight to lift from my chest, I hold my head high and put on my wonder woman vest.

I may not be the prettiest, richest, or the sexiest, but I am one of the strongest women I have ever met.

I am supportive, productive, innovative, and have an exclusively big heart.

All this pain and rejection is just preparation for the best.

Training for a new beginning, preparation for a blissful start.

I am not angry..humbled and hurt...mellow

Anonymous

I've taken this girl, the author like my own blood and flesh and to see her hurt like this upsets me deeply. I feel her pain and I've kind of experienced this same thing before.

All I can do is give her my shoulder and pray for her.

*deep sigh*

Testimony.

2010-08-24T00:23:00.004+01:00

Hi,

It's past midnight. Ooops.

I said I'd come back and give a testimony. So to cut a long story short. God answered my prayer this morning. I had something on my mind since midnight and I was up till 7am lol praying and thinking on it and God answered me today. Wohooooooooo. When I got the email with the answer I was happy.

God is good and his mercy endures forever :)

The Holy Spirit removed her pant.

2010-08-23T22:55:00.005+01:00

Holy Spirit removed her pants — Says pastor accused of having sex with student inside the church

Written by Idowu AdelusiSunday, 02 May 2010

COULD the Holy Spirit have removed the pants and skirt of a lady as claimed by a pastor while praying for her?

The pastor who was still being investigated by the State Criminal Investigation Department (SCID) of the Oyo State Police Command, over allegation of rape, told his interrogators that he only watched the lady’s pants and skirt being removed by the Holy Spirit while he prayed for her.

The minister, Pastor J. Odesola of the Christ Rock Apostolic Church, Agbala Imole, Olodo, Ibadan, allegedly had carnal knowledge of a 17-year-old Unified Tertiary Matriculation Examination (UTME) candidate on Thursday, 15 April, 2010, on the pretext that he was performing deliverance for her.

The lady (names withheld), told Sunday Tribune that on Monday, 12 April, 2010 at 2 p.m, she had gone to see Pastor Odesola for prayer over a dream her mother had concerning the UTME she was to sit for on Saturday, 17 April, 2010.

She continued: “My mother advised me to see the pastor for prayers so that I won’t have any problem with the exam.

“He told me it was the spirit that has been tormenting my parents that was also tormenting me. He called it the spirit of disappointment.

“The pastor told me to come for a programme on Wednesday, 14 April, 2010 tagged Atamatase and also for a special prayer the next day (Thursday 15 April, 2010) to cast away the evil spirit from me.

“On that Thursday, as I arrived the church at 7.30 p.m, Pastor Odesola instructed me to stay in the church because some visitors were with him in the vestry.

“At 8 p.m, he asked me to come into the vestry. He asked if I was ready for the prayer and I said yes. He told me to stand up, placed one hand on my head and the second hand on my chest.

“He murmured some words into my ear and blew air on my face, commanding the evil spirit to come out of me.

“May be I slept off at that moment, I can’t remember. I just found myself on the floor when I woke up, no strength was left in me. He pushed my blouse up and placed a Bible on my tommy.”

“He was now praying, quoting Bible verses. After that, he fondled my navel, blew air on my face again. He touched my forehead. I did not react. He touched my chest and placed his hand on my tommy; he tickled me at my lower abdomen, then waited to know my reaction.

“He got up, moved about the room, which was not properly illuminated, casting out demons. At this point, I slept off again. When I woke up, I noticed my pant and skirt had been removed. The pastor was not in the room.

“Few minutes after, Pastor Odesola came in, he climbed over me. I tried to push him away but I was too weak. He asked if I don’t want to be delivered.

“I slept off again, but when I woke up I noticed his finger was in my private part. He fondled my breast. I struggled to remove it but he charged at me saying I should relax, that he was casting out the demons in me. He now said: “Jesu Oluwa wa, adura re tigba.”

“He held me to himself, forced me to sit down because I was still on the floor. He took a torch, showed me fluid on the ground under my legs. He said it was urine I passed out during the deliverance prayer. He then said: “pelu eleyi to jade nisisiyi, isegun tide.”( with this out of you, your prayer has been answered.)

“Pastor Odesola told me not to feel disturbed, assuring me that I will pass the UTME. He returned my She said further: “I had to call my aunty because I was so disturbed. I could not revise for the exam again. Whenever I opened my book, what I saw was the picture of the man and the scene.

“That was how my parents knew what happened. My parents were enraged, my mummy collapsed two times over it because everybody blamed her for asking me to go and see the pastor.”

The matter was reported at the Area Command Office, Testing Ground and the pastor was picked by the police on Wednesday, 21 April, 2010.

During interrogation, he was asked if he had seen the lady’s nakedness and he said, “yes.”

But when the police demanded to know who removed the lady’s pants, Pastor Odesola said it was the Holy Spirit. They asked him to perform same miracle on a police woman interrogating him for her pants to be removed by the Holy Spirit, but he kept quiet.

The parents of the girl took her for medical examination and the report indicated that the girl had bruises on her private part. The girl also claimed to have lost her virginity in the process.

However, the members of the pastor’s church, who came to see the pastor at the police station, defended their pastor who they called “Daddy.” They said their “Daddy” was not that kind of person. They even accused the lady of framing the story.

Pastor Odesola, who was on Friday, 23 April, 2010 moved to the SCID, Iyaganku, Ibadan said he neither fondled the girl’s breasts nor thrust his fingers in her private part.

Whereas he denied having sexing with her, he admitted that he placed his hand on her private part and on her breast while praying for her.

Meanwhile, the Federation of International Women Lawyers (FIDA), Oyo State chapter has declared its interest in the case.

Speaking with Sunday Tribune, the state treasurer, Mrs. Dupe Awosemusi, said FIDA was actually concerned about the girl’s life.“We don’t know what the pastor has taken from her since she was not conscious in the course of the session,”FIDA said.

“We are also bothered about the security of life of the girl. When you talk of Christendom, this man, being a pastor, is a slap on the body of Christ.

“Things like this should not be covered up. There are so many cases of rape and child abuse nowadays. It was either the suspects were looking for money or spiritual power,”she stated.

The Oyo State Police Public Relations Officer (PPRO), DSP Olabisi Okuwobi, confirmed the story, saying the pastor would appear in court after investigation.

SOURCE : Sunday Tribute

My Views:

What this man has done is nothing new but it still remains a shock to em. The thing that has annoys me the most, is that police are still INVESTIGATING. Sorry, but what is there to investigate? He said 'the Holy Spirit removed her pants' and he admitted to touch her breasts and vagina. So from that alone he should be in jail.

Argh ..... the police are something else in Nigeria. A force of darkness to me. They don't seem to make issues any better but just add to the darkness. I don't think they realise how serious the matter is from when they are dishing out sarcastic comments such as 'perform the miracle on me'. I am speaking based on previous experience and on other cases I have read not just this.

Anyway just thought I'd post this for all to read.

COME BACK

2010-08-23T06:21:00.003+01:00

I promise by tonight I'll have a testimony.

I'm excited.

No title

2010-08-20T01:52:00.002+01:00

Lost for words

Melting

2010-08-19T01:44:00.001+01:00

The first eye to eye moment.

Every laugh.

The secret smile.

The magic moments.

Deciphering you.

It just all makes my heart melt.

*sigh* okay dream over ....

P.S The hardest formula to understand is the human nature.

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Wednesday

2010-08-18T03:44:00.002+01:00

I went for a jog on Monday around my area. I normally just use the treadmill at the gym. This jog was the worst ever yet the greatest.
It was the worst because everything that I had tried to forget about all came back to my mind. It all dawned on me. I felt my neck tighten and my stomach turn. Got in doors and cried a river *smh* It was the greatest because there was a change of scenery everywhere I went, fresh air in my face, I felt free like I was flying without wings!

I really wish....do wishes come true? I don't think so...

I feel like an absolute fool for some things I've done and taken. I'm just lost for words really.

I wish I had a 'map of life' but then that would be boring but much easier I guess. I do have the best thing though which is the 'Bible' and G☺ds own Spirit within me ☺☺

*sigh*

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Monday 2:29am

2010-08-16T02:58:00.001+01:00

Location : My bed (hehehe)

Time: 2:29 am (+_+)

Thoughts: God, family, Uni, Him , dreams, friends and the meaning of life.

I wish we had those options in the picture but I know as humans we would so abuse it lol.

Life is good. God is good and in him their is life.

Yo lo extraño mucho ☹
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It works ....!!

2010-08-14T00:41:00.002+01:00

Prayer Works .... No lie ....I know this so I don't know why I'm saying it! I guess God still shocks me daily!

Today I saw with my own two eyes something I never thought I'd see.

Thank God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Behind the door

2010-08-12T23:38:00.001+01:00

I like what I see behind the door.
Though it's only halfway open so err I can't see everything...

The door appears to be opening
but sometimes it appears to be closing...

What to do? Wait & see what happens or walk away without getting disappointed.

Well God opens & shuts doors.
So either way I shouldn't be disappointed, right? *gulp* :(

P.S I know this is random, Just how I'm feeling I guess... 'random'

P.S.S Thanks for all the love & encouragement from my last post. I really am feeling better I guess.
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If only this was just a dream

2010-08-09T07:42:00.006+01:00

I watched Inception last night and I really loved it. I'm going to watch it again.

Last night must have been the worst night in 2010. I cried so much. I haven't felt like this since 2008. I really wish part of my reality was just a dream and I'd wake up feeling relieved. Unfortunately, this is not the case.

I wish I could run away. Far away, where there is nothing to think about or worry about.

A place where I could just be alone. I'm fed up of humans. Quite frankly, I'm fed up of everything.

I really wish I didn't feel like this but I've come to the reality that at times life is not perfect and I won't always be smiling.

Right now I'm not smiling. I trust God I'll be smiling soon.

I have a Q. Is it necessary to trust people? family? your partner ? your friends? because I don't think I can trust anyone. I've lived my life like this for quite a while and I'm wondering if it's ever going to change.

I'm actually stronger than I think. Thank God.

Anyway, I really pray you all have a blessed week. xx

10 things I love

2010-08-04T01:29:00.001+01:00

I was tagged a while ago by Lohi and I started the post but never got to post it. It was so HARD doing this. I couldn't think of 10 things!

1. Music. I love Music. Right now I'm in love with Brooke Frasers music. Someone sent me a song to listen to 'be my escape' and from there I was led to Brooke Frasers songs. :) I love music that brings me peace. The song below she wrote about someone called Albertine that she met in Rwanda.

2. Acting. I love theatrical things. I don't really want to be in a film but I do desire to take part in a big musical. I love acting, singing and dancing all in one. I am finding it very hard to teach it at the moment though.

3. Talking. I can be very quiet and shy but I love talking! I love sharing ideas , implementing ideas, helping people out etc. This rarely happens though.

4. I love pearls. elegant and cute :)

5. I love travelling. Going to the airport gives me an adrenalin rush! hehehehe! I have so many places I want to visit. The best place I have been to so far is Israel. Not because it's supposed to be the 'Holy Land' but because it really is so beautiful. I'll post some pictures later on.

6. The few friends that I can count on my one hand. Only God knows how much I appreciate them and of course my God given family.

7. Singing. There is not a day that goes by that I don't sing. My family scream and shout about it. I feel for whoever my future husband is. hehehe but my voice is sweet tho :)

8. Pictures. Looking at them and being in them. They say so much. I'm so fascinated with some pictures.

9. Bags. Big tote bags and small clutch bags. All different designs but I have my limits. I can't spend ridiculous amount of money just on a bag.

10. I did this last but he is my first. God and his word. Really he has sustained me through this life. He has brought me up and seen me through and I'm forever grateful.

Nigerian Lecturers ??? Can they even be trusted?? O.o

2010-07-22T23:54:00.006+01:00

*Sigh* I've not had a very nice week. I'm staying strong though because I know God will surely see me through :)

I was on Facebook doing my daily runs hehehe and I came across this video below.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=506026941#!/video/video.php?v=1424870356259&ref=mf

I was so disgusted. It made me realise how different the Nigerian society is from the UKs (Where I was born & bred) .

I mean a whole lecturer? He was acting like a mad man and all they could do was bribe him? I mean what happened to reporting him and making sure he is thoroughly dealt with.

This made me literally sick. I was totally lost for words. I know there are other countries that you may find this kind of behaviour but Nigeria is my country so I will talk about it. I don't have a contemptuous attitude towards Nigeria, surprising to some I actually love Nigeria and hope to move there .One day I shall give a panegyric on how Nigeria has changed until then I will keep praying and hoping for a better day. #enoughisenough

It's stuff like this that cause my 'UK Nigerians' to say I'm crazy for even visiting let alone moving there. Even my parents wonder if I'm okay. hahahahaha .

So if I did decide to move, is this what my child would face? ha! God forbid!

Anyways enough complaining. I'm very happy I saw this because it has opened my eyes even more. Long live Naija!

Hope you all had a nice week. :) I know this was a very random post right.

2010-07-20T19:22:00.002+01:00

This is my 100th POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yaaaaaaaaay to me :) *cough* anyways back to the post :)

Thanks so much for the encouragement blogsville. You are all so wonderful. I really wanted to close my blog down because I couldn't post my personal feelings here any more about certain issues but I've find another avenue for that. :)

With regards to my mood swings. Well I'm learning to be patient and it seems to be going well so I thank God.

I'm really trying to cut out a lot of things these days. Like being on twitter, staying on the phone unnecessarily etc so I can concentrate on more important things but it just seems like things always pop up to distract me :( and if you ignore people they take it personal.

My BB IS A NIGHTMARE. I actually love it but now I leave it on silent and even turn the red flashing light off because it can get so annoying! Sometimes I feel like throwing it. Okay I'm not a violent person lol.

Production

I haven't been to any of the rehearsals this week but I've been learning all the songs. I've recorded a rehearsal we recently had and I've uploaded. In this part of the scene there are twins ( 17 year old girls. They are so adorable) who have found out that their mother is a prostitute. So this song which they are singing is directed to her. I haven't recorded all of it, it's just a snippet. Ignore the side comments and the 'wow' you hear lol.

The performance they have is this Friday. It's just a snippet from the production. We have a meeting tomorrow. The director has been on my CASE! :( She got a few things to me late and now I'm having to rush. *sigh*

Have a lovely week I'll try update tomorrow.

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Hi....I'm home!

2010-07-17T02:53:00.004+01:00

*dusts keyboard*

Oh, it has been a while! First of all congratulations to GNG for winning friendliest blogger. She is a very friendly person. :) Well done madam and congratulations to all the other winners too.

Right, where do I begin. Hmmmm I was actually going to close my blog today. I've been getting crazy mood swings lately but I've decided not to make decisions when I'm under the influence of them because it may not do me any good. I don't know where they all of a sudden came from. I shouldn't allow my situations/problems to change my attitude!

Anyways, I mentioned in a previous post that I've been helping out with a production that will be touring in August. There has been rehearsals everyday for the past 2 weeks. It is so intense! I've not attended all of them since this is not necessary.

My role is the vocal coach. I currently have to learn over 10 songs written by the director , find the harmonies, make sure the BVs (backing vocalists) sing them well and the soloists are well prepared. Its quite tedious for me if I'm honest, since I'm currently writing my dissertation at the moment and it is very time consuming. However, it is great experience and I appreciate the opportunity.

As I said before the tour starts in August and I know it is going to be real crazy! I'm looking forward to it but at the same time I am dreading it because my time management has to be so on point unless my life will begin to go upside down. Next week Friday we do have a snippet of the production to over 10,000 people so that should be quite cool. I'm quite happy I won't be on stage. The last time I had to perform (sing) to a crowd that big with an old group I was in I nearly fell of stage. hehehe it was hilarious well not at that particular moment! iMiss those days :(

It's so funny how education can become a roadblock but at the same time a good stepping stone. Does that make sense to you?

I wish I was a kid all over again.

Nominated

2010-07-08T13:25:00.002+01:00

Hey guys,

I got nominated as friendliest blogger and I would be glad if you could vote for me here ------>>

http://nigerianblogawards.com/

I'll be updating soon! Been a busy week for me :)

Have a lovely weekend

Random Photo Post. :)

2010-06-23T03:40:00.003+01:00

Hey Guys,

So I woke up this morning deciding I wanted to put text and pictures together. lol, very random.

Anyways I used Picnik for the 1st and 2nd pictures and Picasa for the 3rd. I tried to imagine what she might have been thinking.

What do you think? I know its not that great but I'm proud of myself. hehehe :)

These are the originals the photographer is kelly Mallory.

Have a lovely week ahead. :)

P.S Vote for me on the Nigerian Blog Awards. Thanks :)

Thankful

2010-06-13T13:13:00.006+01:00

I have 10 posts that are currently in my draft folder .... for 10 different reasons but I promise to post them all soon :)

Yesterday while I was driving home I was telling one of my friends about some foolish mistakes I committed and how God worked it out and on top gave me favour. She seemed rather surprised. I don't know if it was at my actions or at how God just worked all the mess out.

So I'd like to take this time to Thank God for his mercy, faithfulness and love.

I am so thankful for how God has never forsaken me and he has stayed true to his word. He puts his word above his name which tells you that his word will not fail us.

I'm not the best Christian out there in the eyes of 'humans' but I know in Gods eyes I'm perfection. I believe Christianity is not a religion but about heart transformation and not behaviour modification.

Anyways have a nice week ahead and I'll close with a question. There's this saying 'A leopard cannot change its spots?'

How many people agree with that?

Proverbs 31

2010-06-11T13:13:00.007+01:00

Hey People,

I hope we all had a great week :)

I'm doing this Proverbs 31 write up with Lightherlamp,NoLimit2life, Gee, Funmsdrebirth and Zoebeliever.

This all stemmed from a conversation we were having on twitter about Proverbs 31. Now Proverbs 31 is not the only bible chapter that encourages me as a woman but it is one of them.

Most people tend to talk about Proverbs 31 from verse 10 onwards but I'd ike to take it back to verse 1 -9 where the King speaks of his mother. Frome verse 1- 9 it shows that the mother taught her son about women! Which most mothers don't do ...it also shows she gave him direction in life as to things he should do and what not to do. The son quoted her words which says that he has confident and belief in what she says.

This leads to my first point:

1. A woman who gives her children instructions and advice about life ( v 1-9) One may say that this is obvious but it really isn't. Many mothers don't teach their sons about women or their daughters about men. Many mothers have failed in this area to educate their children about the opposite sex, I suppose we have given the duty to the 'sex education' lecture at school where they teach you that masturbation is healthy O.o .. Yes believe it!

2. A woman with a Noble/Virtuous Character v.10 - A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Virtuous can be defined as noble. Character is so important, you may have good academics , excellent cooking skills, good management skills etc but have a bad stinking character! I believe character takes you far in life and to have a noble character is not an easy thing! It takes pruning and chastisement. So the bible goes on to say this kind of woman is worth far more than rubies. I would believe this is because having a noble character is not easy to attain and cannot be bought. So Men and children if you find a wife and Mother with a good Noble character hold on to her because they are rare!

3. A woman who can be trusted. v.11"The heart of her husband trusts in her.” One of the fundemental things in a relationship is trust.I believe if there is no trust in a relationship it will break down! It may seem good now but sooner or later it will breakdown. The NIV version says 'her husband has full confidence in her'. This stems from the noble character. A man can leave his house and trust that his wife has it under control ²⁷ She watches over the affairs of her household'he can travel and trust that she will no cheat, he can trust that she is not outside bad mouthing him but rather building him up. A woman who can be trusted.

4. A woman who encourages v. 12 - “She does him good .. all the days of her life.” All the days of her life ..she stands besides him through thick and thin. She builds him up even when he has messed up, she still encourages him to keep it moving. Ever heard the saying 'Behind every great man is a great woman' or 'Behind every great man is a praying woman'.I strongly believe that women have the power to make or break their man.

5. A woman who is hard working - v. 13 'works with eager hands'This whole chapter talks about her being hard working from the fact that she v.15 'She gets up while it is still dark; 'shows that she doesn't waste time but wants to make full use of the day. '¹⁷ She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks' this verse also expresses how hard working she is.

6. A woman of Dignity who is strong and confident. ²⁵ She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.She is a woman who is strong and cannot be broken, someone who has dignity and confidence in her and her families futures that she can laugh. She does not worry but laughs.

7. A woman who does more than just cook and cleaning but is also a business woman. - ' ²⁴ She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes'. ¹⁸ She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.' This does not suggest that she must have her own business but it does suggest that women are made for more than just sitting at home to cook and and clean.

8. A woman who speaks wise words and gives good instructions - V.2 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.' This links back to point 1.

9. A woman who can dress. v.23 she is clothed in fine linen and purple. Purple represents Royalty. So this could suggests she dresses elegantly or with class not looking trashy etc etc but looking respectful as well as stylish.

10. A woman who is adored by her husband and children .V.28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her' How many women would love for their husband to praise them, for their kids to call them blessed? It may seem like a normal thing but it is rare. I believe her good efforts and hard work brought this about.

11.A woman who is praised not because of her beauty but because of her good works. V. 31 let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

12. Last but surely not the least but most importantly A WOMAN THAT FEARS THE LORD.

These are just a few of the golden nuggets in Proverbs 31. We strive daily to hit perfection and be the best we can. Becoming a woman of virtue and mirroring the woman described in Proverbs 31 is not impossible but by Gods grace possible.

Have a lovely weekend :)

Sexy et Fabuleux by Funms

2010-06-08T09:17:00.004+01:00

Hey People,

Funmi (Funmsdrebirth) is having an open house lingerie sale event.......It is going to be a quarterly event and this is the first one.

Sexy et Fabuleux (Sexy and Fabulous in french) is an exclusive event dedicated to showcasing and selling quality lingerie and sexy underwear from around the world.

Even if you don't want any lingerie, still go along and show your support. :)

PLUS : Bra Fitting Service Available for FREE!!! ( Please take advantage of this!! Most people wear the incorrect bra size!!)

Date Sunday, June 20th 2010

Venue G.E.T Arena,Lekki.Lagos.Nigeria

Time: 12pm- 6pm

Featured Brands include:

Victoria's Secret
LaSenza
Ann Summers
Primark
Asos
Body Magic
Tenzeni

And many more!!!

Please visit http://www.sexyfabuleux.com/

My World of Acting

Day 18: A problem that you've had

Day 17 : Something that you're proud of

Day 16: Something you always think "What if..." about

Day 15: Your Zodiac/horoscope and if you believe it describes your personality

Day 14: What you wore today

Day 13: Your opinion about your body, and how comfortable you are with it

Day 12 Five guys whom you find attractive

Day 11 : Your Family

Day 10 Put your music player on shuffle and write the 1st 10 songs that play

Day 9: How important you think education is

Day 8: What you ate today

Day 7: Five pet peeves

Day 6: Your views on mainstream music.

Day 5- Things you want to say to an EX

Day 4- Bullet your whole day

Day 3 - A book you love

Day 2 - Something I feel strongly about

Day 1 : 5 ways to win my heart

30 day challenge.

NYSC Camp overall

NYSC Day 2!! Stress!!

NYSC Camp Day 1

NYSC Countdown and shock!

Childhood memories

17 days left!!!!

I think I'm a detective........

Friends

A letter to you

Where was I?

Hello??

E-key-tea

Life

My experience

Tired..

For you... From me

Life and some other things

Let's talk about marriage

Yay! Exciting news!

Angry and Happy

Enjoying the little things

The end

#2010memories

Live in the moment

The artist

Lost for words?

It's been too long

Blog closed.

Vanity Vanity Vanity

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Tal & Acacia

Friday

Newness

My escape

....

Questions and answers

*sigh*

Home sick

VCR's

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I miss it

Fade away.

Here's the link

The rain

Out out out!

Weekend ....

Giving it unconditional

Saturday 25th September 2010

My so called 'worst day' in Nigeria.

Random post

Excited

My Love

Update on my love

Shyness

Introducing my big sis ...

:(

Totally Random ...

Infinity Love

Barlowgirl

Afraid

sigh

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